tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29513931304548900542024-03-05T06:37:03.107-08:00Bright Lights Keep ShiningCarpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.comBlogger54125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-15806501985269540532010-04-03T14:46:00.001-07:002010-04-03T14:46:20.750-07:00Ive never felt more alone in my whole life.<br /><br />Nobody will come.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-80394813869378857562010-01-08T12:53:00.000-08:002010-01-08T13:05:37.192-08:002009.Was the best year of my life.<br /><br />Despite everything shit that happened the first few months, things wouldnt be the same without those months. Im not going to do a review of the year, just point out a few things that meant alot to me.<br /><br />I finished my first college course. I made loads of mates in it, and I still talk to alot of them, which is cool.<br /><br />I started running shows, which went real well too. I wish I was still doing it.<br /><br />I saw Brand New in Glasgow, with some of the best lad. It was class as fuck. Aha. Moneen and Kevin Devine supported. Moneen were unbelievable. Graham and Mark are class.<br /><br />I set up a small independant record label with my friend Alex and Graham. We released our first CD, which was the RAN mini album. The launch night was really class.<br /><br />I ended up kissing, and subsequently asking out, the girl that this blog is definitely not about. Shes the best thing in my life. She's really gotten me through the last few months. I get to spend alot of time with her too, which I didnt think I would. Being at college in Dundalk is a hindrence, but we make it work. Both of us are going to Boston for the summer. It should be great. Im excited to spend it with her.<br /><br />I became friend with lots of class people, drifted away from others, and became closer to others. I wouldnt change it, at all.<br /><br />I started playing football and tennis again. I wish I could still play hurling.<br /><br />I rang in the New Year with people ive met this year, which ruled. We had a snowball fight. I hope we can have more.<br /><br />Life is pretty class.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-49113547787930775852010-01-03T06:37:00.000-08:002010-01-03T06:51:50.640-08:00December.Im not at home anymore<br />Im not even sure if I have one<br />My father is a crippled old man<br />Writhing in the body that will someday be mine.<br />I cant sleep, and its a fight to exist<br />So I sit up reading Bukowski in vans<br />On hills shadowed with a time when we cared.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-1070507562751504192009-09-02T07:11:00.001-07:002009-09-02T07:17:31.979-07:00August 3rd 2009Was just a little short of a month ago. Its now September and im starting college next Wednesday. Ill be studying Cultural and Film Studies. Im looking forward to it I guess. Im scared and all that jazz but fuck it. Its time to do something productive with my life.<br /><br />Speaking of which, between my last post and this, Gajjy, Alex and I released RAN's mini album and its class. Buy it off the band so they can record more deadly stuff. The night was really good too, thanks to anyone who made it out, despite the fact it was midweek and all. It was pretty packed.<br /><br />On August 3rd, my favourite person and me sorted something we should have a long time ago. Ive never been more happy in my life, but the city has never seemed further away. Im going to miss her alot. So much. I wish I wasnt shit at life and was going to college in Dublin with her. Shes living with my mate though, so ill be able to stay loads hopefully. We were in town yesterday and we had an argument. The whold way through she stood with her arms on my collarbone and looked at me. Ive never had an argument where I felt completely at ease with the other person. I know she thinks ill lose interest because shes away, but its completely the opposite. I know how lucky I am to have someone in my life that I care that much about. Its class.<br /><br />Brand New's new album is the best shit ever. Represent.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-30678113514182419652009-07-17T16:25:00.001-07:002009-07-17T16:35:59.775-07:00So lately...Things have been amazing. The last 9 days have changed so much about... everything. I went to Have Heart last Wednesday and it was an amazing day. They are the absolute best band and I owe alot of me changing to them, and I guess, hardcore in general. They are also a band that the girl 90% of this blog is about, and I, bonded over I suppose. We both love them. We hung out all day before it, just being messers in Stephens Green and stuff. We met up with Noonan later and headed to the show for the buzz. I moshed hard for Forced Out and Famine. Easily two of my favourite bands. Famine are the best band in Ireland. During Rise and Fall I just chilled at the back with Shauna. Shipwreck were too delicious. Have Heart were next and it was a pretty amazing experience. They played everything I would have wanted to here, even No Roses, No Skies. Afterwards Shauna, Noonan and I headed for our lifts/bus. In the shop grabbing some tins of coke, Shauna kissed me. To be honest, it was class aha. We walked on for a bit and she kissed me again. It was kinda surreal in my mind.<br /><br />The 8 days that followed were some of the best of my life. Hanging out, being saps, just enjoying each others company. Two years of prologue. Stupid decisions on my part. Eventually we got it right. Shes gone away for two weeks now and I miss her alot already. When she gets back and goes to college I hope we can do this properly. I havent stopped smiling since that night, and I dont intend on doing so anytime soon.<br /><br />Ive never wanted anything so bad.<br />Nothing will ever be the same again.<br /><br /><br />Im doing a 35 mile cycle for charity tomorrow. Wish me luck. Im probably going to pass out but fuck it. Its for a good cause. Tomorrow night is a really good friend of mines 21st. Im really looking forward to it. Im gonna try fill the next two weeks with as much as I can to make it go quick. I know people will probably think im a sap for writing this but I couldnt care less. Im seriously so genuinely happy for the first time in so long. I hope it stays like this for a long time.<br /><br />The Wonder Years are playing next Thursday and Friday. Stall it.<br /><br />CarptastropheCarpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-33895177178660737332009-06-12T08:10:00.000-07:002009-06-12T08:29:06.555-07:00I need you more than I ever thought...That I could need someone else.<br /><br />No matter how hard I try to claim that im not, I really am my Fathers son. The last couple days have fucking torn me up inside, and brought me from highest to lowest ebb. I cant take this shit anymore. I cant even ask for answers anymore, because I know what they'll all be. I cant stand the thoughts that are going through my mind right now. Every single fucking outcome possible, and all of them end up the same.<br /><br /><br />These white walls arent canvas anymore<br />But a bleak reminder of how its all ill ever be<br />Empty like the cavernous home that surrounds me.<br />I cant help but think of every single possible outcome<br />From this series of my worst mistakes<br />A family portrait with a different face.<br />For once I thought id got it right<br />The nights I screamed that I wanted someone to remember<br />Were now nights I screamed for someone I cant forget.<br />And all im left with is my stereo telling me<br />That Life is Hard Enough as it is<br />Without walking away from what you love<br />But knowing you could be forever<br />And not being able to achieve it<br />Despite all the promises we made<br />And everything ive done<br />drives me to be my Fathers Son.<br /><br /><br /><br />FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-6835541291532530202009-06-11T10:46:00.001-07:002009-06-11T10:49:53.462-07:00So...Last night was the best ive felt in probably years. Perfect.<br /><br />It only took me a matter of hours to shatter that. I had to say everything I did though. I dont like having things unsaid. It would have been easy for me to carry on like everything was so perfect. I would have been relatively happy. I dont like to settle for something though. I know youll read this. Dont settle for a safe bet. Long shots are generally more fun. Place a little money, or faith on a long shot, and you could become very rich. Hedge your bets on a safe one, and continue in mediocrity. I know what id choose. So do you, I think. But youre scared. And I dont blame you. Just, last night surely proved to you what ive been saying for so long.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-90976285303975836812009-06-02T16:02:00.000-07:002009-06-02T16:30:34.048-07:0054 Daysfifty four fucking days.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-21144074428376065772009-04-21T14:05:00.000-07:002009-04-21T14:11:32.111-07:00Im in no fit state....To carry dead weight.<br /><br />http://myspace.com/forcedouthc<br /><br />I watched my grandfather die right before my eyes.<br />Im watching my grandmother wither into something I never want her to be.<br />My father is drinking himself to an early grave.<br />Friendships flicker and die.<br />I have few constants, and the ones I do seem distant.<br /><br />Im pretty much running on auto pilot. Sleep, college, work, sleep. Rinse, repeat. This summer will make or break me I reckon. I miss the days of a few years ago, yet I wonder if anything we promised each other was ever real.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-59167768504256159562009-03-14T06:18:00.001-07:002009-03-14T06:43:45.644-07:00He said Son...<div style="text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-yC4D7Lv_kD6VnxQ33gD7bMAKlIAI-f8oaL4gXrUtHvQuPnIe7vcBbh-9HgTNxaVL51v5Asd6LogO3WKqwvN_KqTPRCGOGWX5tAbFnRoJr_wvod5Vjnuekt4knTNmo9_9oXUsdG4EPomi/s1600-h/DSC00130.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 311px; height: 234px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-yC4D7Lv_kD6VnxQ33gD7bMAKlIAI-f8oaL4gXrUtHvQuPnIe7vcBbh-9HgTNxaVL51v5Asd6LogO3WKqwvN_KqTPRCGOGWX5tAbFnRoJr_wvod5Vjnuekt4knTNmo9_9oXUsdG4EPomi/s400/DSC00130.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5313037743165973954" border="0" /></a>Where did this all go wrong?<br /><br /><br /></div><br /></div>Young Wolves are going to be my favourite band.<br /><br />About three weeks ago I got a phonecall off my Dad while I was out telling me that him and my mother had broken up. Im not saying I didnt see it coming but I was in shock a bit. I didnt go home for a few days, I stayed in my sisters and my mates houses, its nice that I could do that, im grateful for it. When I went home, I didnt really speak to either of them, I kept to my room and got a surprising amount of college work done. Mum and Dad are still living here, but theyre living seperate lives under one roof. I dont really know what to do. The few places I feel at home I cant go because im broke alot of the time. Its out of choice though, my parents would give me money if I asked, but im too stubborn or proud to ask. I dont really know what I want to do anymore, only that I need to get out of here, whether thats moving county or moving country, I dont know.<br /><br />I just realised the last time I blogged was in 2008. It ended pretty awfully, the same way it began, and im not upset to see the back of it. 2009 was looking up until this, and im not going to let it spoil my year. I made so many good friends in '08, people id like to think I will be able to call friends for life, but people move on and change, as was proven to me at the beginning of this year. Someone I thought id call a friend for life decided to tell me she'd been deceiving me all along. I was pretty heartbroken to be honest. I trusted her with alot, and having her lie to me was like a kick in the head. I never usually let people in, which is half the reason I have this blog. It feels alot easier to write it to some unknown third party than telling someone to their face.<br /><br />I stopped drinking this year too, im not claiming edge or anything, I just dont feel that its something I need in my life right now, it can only do bad to my frame of mind. I tend to find myself not making as many stupid mistakes as I used to. I have a clearer head most of the time. I tend to spend as much time as I can these days not in Ardee, this town gets me down so much.<br /><br />This year will hopefully play out well. April will be a class month for shows, then the Famine launch in May, and im putting them on in the Town Hall on the 9th of May. Im going to try my best to get to two of Brand New's dates in England too, and theres talk of me heading to see NFG a few times with the Gajit. The Wonder Years are coming in July and hopefully Have Heart/Shipwreck and Rise and Fall at some stage too.<br /><br />Hopefully ill get to see FAW and The Prestige on Sunday, im interested to hear how they sound. Its been too long since I was at a show.<br /><br />Carpo, attempting to stay posi.<br /><br />Laterz.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-75235930525830777362008-12-28T16:32:00.000-08:002008-12-28T17:01:52.960-08:00Comatose but audible.Everyone seems to be writing blogs about 2008. I intended on doing so but it will wait.<br /><br />This has been my worst christmas period ever. Easily. Theres so many people I wish I could say this in person to, but I cant bring myself to do it. I spent my christmas day alone, which in itself wasnt great. My mother was in work, my father and granny at an aunts, and my sisters with their husbands. I stayed at home playing poker and drinking tea. St Stephens day I was in work and it was mad. I went out with the lads to Carrick after. Frankie, Keith and Doodles were there. These three guys are such good lads. Theyve always had my back through everything. I never get to spend enough time with them as Doodles is in the army, and Keith and Frankie are away at college. We had fun, my mate Simon was there too. He hasnt had the best christmas. Hes been extremely depressed since he left college and it scares me. We went the whole way through school together. If he doesnt succeed in life, theres no chance for anyone ha.<br /><br />Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. A couple who read this blog know, but most dont. I find it hard to talk about this subject, and anytime its brought up I try avoid it. For the past 20 or so years my father has been in and out of alcoholism. It never really registered as strange for me until I was 13 or 14. I presumed I guess that it was normal for Dads to go out to the pub every night. I remember other people used to say things like, "Ah wheres Paddy? Down in the pub?" and the answer would always be yes. I realize now that it was some sort of dig. I always looked up to my Dad, as I suppose most kids did. I wanted to be like him when I was older. He always worked/works hard and gave us a pretty well off life. We never wanted for anything. His only vice was alcohol. Up until this April he had been off it a while, but then my Granda, his father, died. He had been living with us for two years, with myself and my mother taking care of him and Granny. Him dying hit Dad pretty hard and he started drinking again.<br /><br />Yesterday I was in Dundalk and I got a phonecall off Dad. He was mumbling and I knew he was drunk but something about his tone worried me. He sounded scared or something. He kept mumbling about those little bastards in the house. I got home as soon as I could anyway, and when I got inside he was sitting at the top of the stairs sobbing and shaking. When I asked him what was wrong he just brought me into the bedroom and pointed at the wall saying can you not see them? I was so scared at this point but I had to tell him I didnt. He just broke down on the floor and started crying. He kept asking me to tell him it was all in his head. I didnt really know what to do. I sat him on the bed and he sat there shaking for almost two hours, sobbing. Once he calmed down he said he thought they had gone. He asked me not to tell Mam, that shed put him into a mental home. He fell asleep, still mumbling.<br /><br />I had to tell my mother, so I did. Im not sure whats going to happen now. My Dad was hallucinating about snakes, maggots on his skin. I dont know if it was years of alcohol abuse or a mental breakdown.<br /><br />Ive never really been as scared in my whole life.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-81944977200339475522008-12-23T14:18:00.000-08:002008-12-23T14:46:20.834-08:00Id rather die on my feet...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOlJ2IZjpgxwakQwWenyyfq46Racrq_j5U2okIDTuYl9vnHi_Cv6e-t1nEeO9vSWGx77P_2pJN-lbarJ5Ze4MxEqShrG1n9trOoDAY7YFSPpVk-Gap3t5X-EpT-7bDN1P83b4lRTFLJpzN/s1600-h/100_3263Small.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 251px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOlJ2IZjpgxwakQwWenyyfq46Racrq_j5U2okIDTuYl9vnHi_Cv6e-t1nEeO9vSWGx77P_2pJN-lbarJ5Ze4MxEqShrG1n9trOoDAY7YFSPpVk-Gap3t5X-EpT-7bDN1P83b4lRTFLJpzN/s400/100_3263Small.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283114063773004770" border="0" /></a><br />Have Heart was last night. It was the best night of my young life so far. Theres been a lot of posts about "the scene" lately, and I didnt really want to do one but im just gonna throw my two cents in. Its easy to see how much whats going on lately means to some people. Dublin Hardcore is huge right now. When I started coming to shows, only a couple touring bands had been over. Since then, and since I turned 18, Blacklisted, Have Heart, Ceremony, Dirty Money, Comeback Kid and countless others have been over.<br /><br />Im not claiming to be a part of whats going on. I go to shows, and I do my bit. We all know what was said over the last week or so. For someone to turn around and say that is such bullshit. Ive never felt more at home or welcomed than at a show. Nobody has any obligation to be nice to anyone else because they watch a band or hang around the scene, more than likely if someone actually bothers to be sound, they mean it. I know ive written about this before and I probably sound like a broken record, but before I found all of this, Hardcore, Dublin Hardcore, I had no sense of direction, no real drive or motivation. I feel these days like im living for something. Ive touched on the fact that I was an odd kid. I was depressed around the age of 16 for whatever reason. I couldnt explain it myself really. I had friends and I was good at school but nothing was my own. I grew up with two older sisters, and pretty much never had the company of other children growing up, I always thought that contributed to it.<br /><br />The show last night was amazing. All the local bands killed it. Im sad to see RT! go for a while. They were always one of my favourite local bands, loved singing along. FAW were class. Six West is their best song by a mile. Forging Friendships are one of my favourite bands, not just in Ireland. The last song they played last night was fucking epic. That outro is so good. Everyone set it off loads and it was class to see. Have Heart's set was clehzzzzzzzz. Perfect mix of songs off the 3 releases. It was paced well and not rushed. I really liked Paddy's bits between songs. All of what he said really set the night off to a tee. If they dont come back this summer ill be travelling abroad to see them. On the Bird In The Cage was sickeningly good, as was No Roses No Skies. Fucking yeah.<br /><br />This last year has been the best Ive ever had.<br />Ive made so many great friends. In Dublin and at home.<br />Ive fallen out with people I said I never would.<br />Ive seen my favourite bands play great shows and shit shows.<br />Ive screamed a thousand words back at faces wholl never remember me, and ones ill never forget.<br />Ive loved and not been loved.<br />Me and my parents have gotten on better than usual which is sweet.<br />I graduated from school, and did my Leaving Cert.<br />I started college.<br />My band broke up and I started writing again.<br />I started to run shows.<br />I finally told someone I should told a long time ago to fuck off.<br />I went to Birmingham to see three of my favourite bands with 3 proper dudes and a sound girl.<br />I blogged about going to the shop and getting some Tayto.<br />I didn't grow a moustache.<br />I grew up a hell of a lot.<br /><br />Hopefully 2009 will rule harder.<br /><br />Well done Forging Friendships on getting your deal. Release your fucking 7" FAW.<br /><br />Latahz.<br /><br /><br /><span style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /></span>Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-55689271824706247272008-12-11T10:44:00.000-08:002008-12-11T10:50:51.438-08:00Fuccccck.Verse was this week.<br /><br />It was amazing, thanks so much to Alex for letting me stay in his. Sweet couch, on the real. Forging Friendships fucking killed it. The last song they played was amazing.<br /><br />I gave a friend a hard time lately over getting with a guy, and I was a complete asshole over it. Sorry. Last thing you need is your mate getting on your case over it. I was extremely selfish and im sorry. Its my jealous being taking over. It does hurt hearing you talk about other guys at times, but really, if it makes you happy, and I was a good friend, id be happy.<br /><br />Thank you, for saying those things, D. Made me feel like I do all the stupid stuff I do for a reason.<br /><br />This will be fucking amazing. December 22nd. Im living for it.<br /><br />My girl, my girl, tell me why you look so sad...<br />Has the sun finally set on us?<br />Have you come to long for another's hand?<br />There's a feeling inside me that somethings leaving.<br />Like someone stealing salt from sea.<br />Left me sinking and left me thinking<br />how to keep you caged with me<br /><br />Because I need you like air to breathe<br />Just to hold you.<br />o' I hold you.<br />o' how I hold you.<br />I hold you down.<br /><br />Down with my insecurities<br />down with my hypocrisy<br />down with my pathetic pleas<br />down instead of setting you free<br />to find your happiness with or without me.<br /><br />So untie your feat, reattach your wings<br />so you don't have to open your throat to sing.<br /><br />Because if it's you I love, then from you...<br /><br />I'd walk away.<br /><br />And your face:<br />on every leaf<br />of every branch<br />of every tree.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-24390838747526276612008-12-03T13:59:00.000-08:002008-12-03T14:24:05.022-08:00When I look into the mirror...I see a boy not a man.<br /><br />I see a broken wreck with close to nothing left.<br /><br />I see someone dying to let go of his insecurites.<br /><br />I see an obsessive.<br /><br />I see someone so jealous he spites anything making people happy.<br /><br />I see someone so consumed with self pity that he finds it impossible to just be happy for someone.<br /><br />I see a boy in love. Hopelessly.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Today has been the worst ive been in a while. I never want anyone to make me this angry again. I walked home in the rain just there. It was freezing. I stayed out way longer than I should have. The person im mad at doesnt even warrant this. Its not fair. On either of them.<br /><br />I cant change someones feelings no matter how hard I try or wish I could. I look at all of them though, and wonder why are they so much better than me. Im not exactly a self praising guy as it is, but this is just a kick in the stomach.<br /><br />I don't have one single picture of us,<br />What kind of "brother" am I?<br />Left wondering where my next drink will come from,<br />I am my fathers son.<br />Shaking in a room I never wanted,<br />Between walls filled with people who never cared,<br />And thoughts of people who never will.<br />Memories are all that I can rely on<br />I never wanted this.<br />For all the nights you listened to Tell All Your Friends<br />And thought of ways to let me down<br />I will drop to my knees and scream<br />About every night I spent alone.<br />I never wanted this<br />A broken fist and emptiness<br />And all I can tell myself is that I<br />Never fucking wanted this.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-86949287307239686052008-12-02T06:19:00.000-08:002008-12-02T06:30:38.946-08:00Posi.The other night while on the bus home from the Ceremony show I got off my bus about 2 miles from home and walked. Everything was frosted over, there wasnt a car on the road and nobody was around. It was really nice. I was listening to Explosions In The Sky and I was really happy. Lately ive been so good. Apart from not sleeping, everything has been great. Im so happy with what I have, so sorry to anyone ive been a dick to lately.<br /><br />I went to Birmingham two weekends ago to the Easycore Tour. It was class and I had loads of fun. FYS and SYG killed it. Them and NFG are 3 of my favourite bands, so it was class to see them all in one night. Oscar is my boyyy.<br /><br />Ceremony was Sunday. Im not into them really but headed up anyway. Ended and RT! were class. NH were good too,and I had to leave before Ceremony. I had sweet chats with Alex, Gajjy, Liamy and Tracy. All extremely good people.<br /><br />Im extremely excited for Verse. Ill be seeing them twice, and then have WickedOwl's partaaaaay. I cant wait, for realsies. I cant wait to see FF. Im more excited for them than Verse. After Verse, we have our show up in Dundalk, which im stoked as fuck for, but its well eclipsed by my favourite band coming over two days later. Have Heart will be amazing. The lineup is incredible and the atmosphere will be class id say.<br /><br />Im still single and its all gravy. I told someone how I felt about them the other night and didnt get much back. I was gutted to say the least. Maybe shes not who I thought.<br /><br />Steal My Sunshine is my jam right now.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-28238850306053108482008-11-19T13:22:00.000-08:002008-11-19T13:58:23.605-08:00Kid Without A ClueIve been listening to so much Punchline after Inflatable Gods covered them.<br /><br />So Horse The Band was last night in Dorans. I was really really happy that a good crowd turned up. I think theyre muck in fairness, but the locals were really good. I just cant get into Arcada, they have one really good song. Jack said last night that its like theyre trying to outsmart everyone in the crowd. I just cant find a good reason for them to be around. The bassist looks like Edge from WWE. Cover his theme tune lads.<br /><br />It usually takes a hell of a lot to impress me from a band. Im pretty strange with my listening tastes. RAN are the best band I have seen in so long. They sound like a cross between Title Fight and Explosions In The Sky, or Explosions In The Sky if they had balls. The vocals are so good. Theyre so tight and just.. everything about them is great. During the end of the second last song I swear I couldnt stop smiling.<br /><br />Real Talk! were so fucking good as well. I love singing along to them, such good lyrics and such good lads.<br /><br />I legged it for my bus before HTB but it was a good night, had the sweet chats with Graham and Mark, Alex and Jack, Nelly and WickedOwl. Im taller than Emmie, best news.<br /><br />I might finally have a band going. Detes whenever.<br /><br />Latahz.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-11295129142995401302008-11-18T03:45:00.000-08:002008-11-18T03:47:48.375-08:00Horse The Band.Fucking go or im not talking to you anymore.<br /><br />Happy Birthday Iano!!<br /><br />Im in a really good mood today and im so fucking stoked for the weekend. Class.<br /><br /><br />Hit that shit.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-45871478444572537302008-11-16T12:13:00.000-08:002008-11-16T13:16:28.379-08:00HBM!Stands for Happy Birthday Moshspace! Haha. Sweet buzz.<br /><br />This show was on Friday. I was meant to go into town early so I could hang with cool dudes but I missed my bus in. Got there just after 7, and went to hang with Nelly for a little bit. It was my first time meeting him in real life and hes just as good a dude as I expected him to be. We had the chats for a bit and I grabbed a drink and shit. Gajjy, Tracy, Ciaran, Mark and a girl whos name I dont know (sorry!) came then. I havent seen Graham and Ciaran in ages and they are seriously two of my favourite people ever. Ciaran is never drinking again apparently, haha. What a lad. Mark is a class dude aswell, had a chat with him about Lionheart and shit. Veteran are down to come and play a show which is sweet.<br /><br />Graham is class. I seriously need to spend more time with the guy. Birmingham is going to fucking rule.<br /><br />It was my first time meeting Tracy too, and shes class. We only talked for a bit but shes a savage girl altogether.<br /><br />The gig anyway. Inflatable Gods came on first and they were so good. The Punchline cover was good. No A Wave Came though. I was gutted. They were probably my favourite band of the night, they have gotten so good. I meant to have the chats with Foxy but didnt get to cos I had to get my bus. Bad times.<br /><br />Cornered were on next and they were fucking heavy. Johnathon is a class vocalist. The last song they played was the best thing ive ever heard. They should play every show.<br /><br />Find A Way were next, and theyre my favourite local band. I sang along and danced and held up people who dived. MOSH TO DIVE. The intro to Community that they played was insane. The end of Community itself was class.<br /><br />Ciaran Parnell was the last act I saw. He was his usual class self. Ceding Fiction is my favourite song and he played it. He played 5.2 Megapixels aswell, which is a song about lurking hard. Thats the realest shit.<br /><br />I was so upset that I missed FF, but it couldnt be avoided. Theyre one of my favourite bands full stop, nevermind local. Everyone needs to listen to them, seriously. The album is going to be amazing.<br /><br />The rest of the weekend was alright I suppose. Birmingham next weekend will be really good. Im missing Sas' party though. Kinda gutted, but im sure she understands.<br /><br />Fucking hell, I really never have anything to say in blog's, I might just stop.<br /><br />Latahz.<br /><br />CarpoCarpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-28316461308314652972008-11-08T14:16:00.000-08:002008-11-08T14:17:57.337-08:00Negi.Fuck this shit.<br /><br />After everything weve been through that youd turn around and do the exact opposite of what youd said.<br /><br />I knew exactly what was going on as soon as I stopped getting dirty looks.<br /><br />I shouldnt depend on a crutch. But I do.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-84977065541756403202008-11-04T11:49:00.000-08:002008-11-04T12:05:04.504-08:00Jaws Theme Swimming.Take the picture from the wall when you think that nothing matters<br />Take the picture from the frame and it's a long ways to the floor<br />Cut your finger on the edge 'cause it's sharper than they told you<br />Take a leap from out the window cause it's way too far to go through the door<br /><br />Im still really smitten with this girl.<br />I never see her.<br />We arent interested in the same things.<br />Her friends arent my friends, mine arent hers.<br />I highly doubt she would ever like me back.<br /><br />Yet she makes me smile with the smallest of things.<br />Shes a ridiculously caring person.<br />She actually puts up with my bullshit.<br />She makes me feel good about myself.<br /><br /><br />I dont care if I never see her. Its well worth it if I get that tingling feeling just one more time.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-2305227470487431332008-11-03T14:57:00.000-08:002008-11-03T15:10:41.027-08:00Friends and shit.I have one single picture of me and you. Its sitting directly opposite me now. for 5 years you were my best friend. For 3 you were my only friend. How quickly things change given a change of scenery. That said, I saw it coming last year, yes, but I didnt expect this. Youre cutting me out of your life and im being replaced with people more suited to your parents or society. Your parents never liked me. Your other friends pretended to, but clearly they didnt. Fuck losing friends. I have no picture of us on my wall anymore.<br /><br />I didnt get to sleep last night till around 5, and I was up for college at 8. I went in and was told that we had the whole day off. Fucking great. It wasnt bad actually. Pete, Taaffe, AnnMarie, Levins, Quigley and I all headed into Dundalk for a while. We sat in the marshes for a couple hours just talking. It was really good fun. A couple of those people are slowly becoming really good friends of mine.<br /><br />At the minute, Brand New and Have Heart are in my CD player alot. I definitely prefer Things We Carry now. Last month I preferred Songs To Scream At The Sun. It depends on my mood I suppose. I need to make a b9 order soon. Anyone else want in?<br /><br />Halloween was last week. I dressed up as Tom from Father Ted. I had a bunny impaled on a sword and all. I went up to Keiths house for a little while which was really fun. We watched fucked up videos and played Guitar Hero. I drank whiskey. It was good. I headed out to meet Laura in Luna afterwards. She was shitfaced as per usual. For the third week in a row she was in tears within ten minutes of me talking to her. I do feel for her boyfriend sometimes. Hes a really nice guy, and shes a great girl but theyre completely different. He has no idea how to deal with her when she gets like that. Hes really innocent and just...so... not Laura. I do hope they work out though, she deserves a nice guy.<br /><br />I cant wait for the Moshspace Anniversary show. Its gonna be the tits. Class lineup, and a couple people from college are coming up. I cant wait to see Fishtank Parnell and Inflatable Gods espescially, but everyone on the lineup is deadly.<br /><br />I got asked to maybe start a new band the other day. Its with nice lads and id love to work something out. Ive gotten a few offers lately but nothing id be interested in really.<br /><br />Im going to a Debs in August with Sas, I cant fucking wait. I hope its good, she deserves it.<br /><br />LATA PLAYAZ.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-66923935266406326062008-10-20T14:28:00.000-07:002008-10-20T14:59:04.893-07:00Summers GoneYO. Its been ages since I last blogged, im gonna try and do 3 or 4 a week from now on. Ive been mad stoked on reading blogs lately. Iano, Zach, Mackell and Joe all have class ones. I like WickedOwls too, but I dont really know her, sweet blog though.<br /><br />I started college since I last blogged, doing Creative Media in Fundalk. I love it really. Everyone is really nice except one dude. Hes an over aggressive cunt. Ive made some deadly friends through it, and have started hanging out with older mates too. College rules.<br /><br />Since then also brought the demise of my band. RIP Familiar Things. Les Croissant. Various other names. 2004 - 2008. Buzz was had majorly in the band, I was in it with my best mates. Shit began to get strained by the end though, so we called it a day. I miss it loads already, I want to be in another band as soon as I can be. Id love to be in a pop punk band, nobody around here would be down though.<br /><br />Ive been listening to lots of new music lately. Tigers Jaw are still the business. Been listening to a ridiculous amount of Yellowcard too, theyre so fucking good. Band of the minute are Have Heart though. Id always been into them but lately ive just gotten into them so much more, I think it was the Dublin gig that spurred me on to listen. About Face and Armed With A mind are amazing off Things We Carry, No Roses, No Skies and Brotherly Love off Songs To Scream At The Sun are my favourite. December 22nd, Ruaille Buaille. Stall it.<br /><br />Stuff coming out of Dublin at the minute is still amazing. Cant wait for the FAW 7". Hopefully some new Real Talk! at some stage too, thatd be class. The Shower Scene are doing well too, and I still think theyre a fucking class band. Im really excited for two bands, Young Wolves and Dead Wrong who will be playing around Dublin soon hopefully. My two favourite vocalists are fronting the bands, Iano and Nelly respectively. Young Wolves are Pop Punk and the samples sound class. Dead Wrong are hardcore and I cant wait to hear it. Yo, Andrew, where the fuck are Chillin Spree at?<br /><br />I was at the SEBP Album Launch a couple weeks ago with family and my mate Colm. It was sweet. Buzz was had and the place was jammers. I got talking to Vinny from the Vinny Club too, hes a class dude, and their set was cuhlazz. The remix album is deadly,apart from a couple too many remixes of a certain track, but nonetheless, sweet.<br /><br />Im going to Birmingham in a month to see Four Year Strong, Set Your Goals, Crime In Stereo and New Found Glory. I cant fucking wait. I know Gajjy and Alex are going, dunno who else ill know there but I dont care. I love all 4 bands so fucking much. Thinking about getting an SYG tattoo but ill see how shit goes.<br /><br />Its Karl/Wayne/Katch/Taaffes Birthdays this weekend. Fuck haha. No way am I gonna have time for all that. Karl and Katch are out saturday night methinks, Taaffee friday so it SHOULD be grand. I cant wait. Everyone will be around for the first weekend in so long. Everyones either off at college or just acting the dick and ignoring me lately. Tis shit.<br /><br />I started talking to Saoirse again recently, which is mad. Both of us were going through the same shit and never knew it. It had only been 3 weeks but thats loads,shes my best mate in fairness. I dont say that to her enough, and I really should.<br /><br />Im procrastinating big time here, college assignments to be done.<br /><br />Listen to Forging Friendships.<br /><br />Latahz.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-90948349937565872782008-09-11T12:48:00.000-07:002008-09-11T12:56:14.503-07:00Sowing Season."Lie to me, like you used to"<br /><br />Tigers Jaw are my band of the moment.<br /><br />http://myspace.com/tigersjaw<br /><br />Ive been smiling for about 4 weeks straight, just like to say thanks for that. I know youll probably never read this, I knew very few do but thanks. Whether you know it or not youre one of the best things to happen me in ages. Youre one of the most kindhearted people ive ever met, and I love that. Youre one of those people who when you say you dont wanna ruin a friendship, you mean it, youre not using it as some cop out. Might suck for me and all but it just adds to your appeal. Every little thing about you makes me smile, its class. Dont go away.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-65746783201517829362008-08-27T13:52:00.000-07:002008-08-27T14:09:23.789-07:00Carpo is Planning an Escape...Currently listening to : Messiah J and the Expert, New Forging Friendships, Adebisi Shank.<br />Currently eating : Burritos. Cheers Zach/Epicurean food court.<br /><br />So its been ages since I updated this, and the last one was angry as fuck. Last few weeks have been full of the buzz,hangouts and shows and whatnot. Debs was in there somewhere, seems like ages ago. Dawned on me how much ill miss some people at it, fuck like. Ive an interview for college on Friday, which is two days away. I hope I get it, id rather do it than sit on my arse for a year, I already did that last year. Alkaline Trio was last night. They fucking played Bleeder. It was the best shit ever. We also got Old School Reasons in the encore. The Nine IX Lives lads/lady were class too. The new tunes are amazing, espescially the second one they played. Record that shit. I thought Gajjib was gonna storm the stage for Radio. Before I die, I will see him mosh hard.<br /><br />My bud Karl got his place in Pulse recording today. Im chuffed, hell be so good there. Traditional learning shit never suited him, but hes a genius. Have I actually updated this since I got my LC results? I got like, 300 points, and failed two. I reckon ill come up a grade or two in rechecks, so im guessing ill be hitting around 350 - 360. Sweet. Gareth got Maynooth, and although im chuffed for him, ill miss the fucker so much. For all our fights and stuff, I love the guy. Im just so shit that id never tell him that, so I guess I can only blame myself for the stress our friendship has been under sometimes.<br /><br />This weekend will be the bizzzz and a half. Friday I gotta view my exams, and have my interview, then its a mates going away party, hes hitting Australia, well, forever. Fair balls but still. Heading out to see an ACDC tribute band that night then, which on the real, should be class.<br />Saturday I think im working, but if im not, im gonna stall it into Dublin for a bit. After that im going to see the Futile Junkies in the Castle, then heading to Paddys 21st, where ill see everyone, YERRRRRR. Even the Burkes, including Niamh, who needs a shower, seriously, (HAI NIAMH) and Tasha and Sinead. Wahey. Should be an epic night. I hafta get up at silly o clock the next morning to go to Knock though. Fook like. But still, a whole day with Danny and Navan. Good times.<br /><br />This year, if all goes ahead, will be soooo fucking good. Ive loadsa plans, which include loads of my new friends, including Colm, who I can safely say is the nicest dude ive met in a long time.<br />Ill be all over the country hopefully, because all my friends are at college away from home, so I have dibs on all of their couches haha. Im 18 in 2 weeks or so. Fuck like, ive waited so long for it. I can finally go to shows and whatnot. Buy a pint legally, that really is going to be class. Hopefully 18 will bring someone who actually finds me desirable too haha. Im gonna grow a beard, fuck that shit.<br /><br />Easy Core tour in November with "the lads" will be the tits, as will Karls Bday weekend. On another note, Karls new girlfriend is mad sound, which is class, cos he said the other day that he knows I hated all his ex girlfriends, which is really true. He attracts dopes and psychos, but Niamh is grand haha.<br /><br />Seriously hate to be back at school, alot of the lads and lassies are. By 2010, our once beloved ACS will be a Nazi regime. RIP.<br /><br />Now listening to : All or Nothing.<br /><br />Later dooooooodz.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2951393130454890054.post-20610894190872178952008-08-10T08:57:00.001-07:002008-08-10T08:59:14.404-07:00Shut the fuck up.Im guessing youll read this you fuck.<br /><br />You were never anything but fucking bad for that girl, even right fucking now. Youre fucking KILLING her. Do her a favour, if you ever gave a shit about her and fuck off.<br /><br />She wrote that shit because you could never stand to fucking hear it yourself. Be a man and stop fucking whining about it.Carpohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12588856897310946583noreply@blogger.com0